painful!

i told you that i love you. i confessed my love to you. behind you, i said it aloud that i love you. i tried to hide it in my heart forever, but loving alone is too painful. dreaming, waiting, watching you from far away, it's to hard for me. what should i do ? 

my heart finally make an accident. i shouldn't loving you. even though i try so hard to prevent it. i know it'll hurt but i still make that accident. without me knowing my heart created love towards you!!! i didn't want to love ever again. the scars that will come later hurts so much wanting someone, and waiting, that's so hard. what do i do ? my tears cause problem again. i don't wanna cry, i don't wanna even thought i try to endure, it's begging me to back, it's want to see you, not knowing that you don't even look at me.